The Next Step.

So I'm happy to announce after many years, I have achieved one of my goals,  I finally have an Associate's Degree from Grand Rapids Community College.  It was a long, up and down journey but I'm glad it finally came to fruition.  The only thing I have left to wonder is where do we go from here?

What's the next step?

The answer is I truly do not know what the next step is.  I am happy that I have the associates degree but I don't know if it's going to get my foot in the door anywhere.  I'm just glad I finally have an Associate's Degree.  I could go for the Bachelor's degree but I'm honestly burned out on school, maybe that makes me a bad student, maybe it makes me an underachiever but I'm ready to throw in the towel with schooling.

My job is my crutch right now, it's what get me up every morning, some days are good, some days are bad but I would be nothing without it.  And yet, sometimes I just sit in my car and wish I would head in the opposite direction, the anywhere but here mentality, the wanting of something more out of life, just going on an adventure but I never go through with it because it's irresponsible but lord knows I've thought about it.  I think about it a lot actually.

I don't want to worry any of you but I've recently been thinking about existential crises, this thought was put on by finishing Season 2 of BoJack Horseman (which I highly recommend for fans of Will Arnett from Arrested Development and Alison Brie from Community, and Aaron Paul from Breaking Bad).  BoJack Horseman is an emotional draining/fulfilling show.  It makes you think about life in a different light and its kinda hit me hard lol.

It's not that I'm having an existential crisis but I'm just kinda going through the emotions as I do with life and its twists and turns.  I seek a deeper and better understanding of everything going around me and the desire to shift focus and or change my life for the better.  Sometimes I just sit in bed and think about everything going on in my head...I have the Associate's degree, what's the next step?

How can we better ourselves through our ever evolving world?

You know sometimes I think I'm pretty dense but other times, I feel like I'm pretty deep but it only comes out when I start moving my fingers across the keyboard.

I clearly have a passion for writing but only when I really put my heart and soul into it.  If I don't love it, I don't have the passion for it.

Coming back to this blog to vent every once in awhile is like a breath of fresh air.

I love it.

This week if I seem a little spaced out or out of it, I apologize, I'm just seeking a deeper connection and understanding of this life.

Anyways I love you all, have a great week and I'll see you around.