Favorites of 2014.

Well I certainly can't call anything the best of 2014 because I didn't really dive into all the media 2014 had to offer but here are my favorite song, movie, album, tv show and game of 2014.  Here we go.

SONG OF THE YEAR 2014:  Untitled by Kendrick Lamar



Kendrick Lamar is probably one of my favorite artist in recent memory.  His untitled entry he performed live on the Colbert Report ended up being my favorite song of 2014.  The smooth beat, his powerful lyrics and the almost beat poetry atmosphere put this song to top of 2014.  Can't wait for his new album in 2015.

MOVIE OF THE YEAR 2014:  Let's Be Cops


Now I know what you're thinking... Whaat? Yes, my favorite movie of 2014 was a movie few probably saw but  Let's Be Cops was a dream come true for me.  Two of my favorite actors from one of my favorite shows, New Girl joined forces in an R-rated buddy "not" cops flick which delivered high laughs among solid action.  A surprising performance by Rob Riggle as well in one of his more serious roles to date.  Let's Be Cops was an R-rated hour and a half episode of New Girl where Nick and Coach screwed around pretending to be cops.  Sure. they weren't Nick and Coach but that's all I could see.  All in all, Let's Be Cops was my favorite movie of 2014.

ALBUM OF THE YEAR 2014:  Everything Will Be Alright In The End by Weezer


Weezer redeemed past failures in 2014 with their best album since Pinkerton in EWBAITE.  Weezer brought back the classic Weezer sound with a bunch of hits in songs Ain't Got Nobody, Back to the Shack,  Lonely Girl,  Da Vinci among others.  This album was my absolute favorite of 2014 because of all the good feels it brought to me and brought me back to the classic days of Weezer before all the experimenting..and unnecessary Rivers Cuomo mustaches.

TV SHOW OF THE YEAR 2014:  Review


I've always liked Andy Daly,  sure he got started on Mad TV but I know him best from the short lived Comedy Central political/social commentary show Lewis Black's Root of All Evil.  He then went on to get a starring role in HBOs Eastbound and Down and he's been firing on all cylinders ever since.  Review starred Daly as Forrest MacNeil, a mild mannered man who hosts a review show where he reviews life's greatest questions from Stealing to Racism to Divorce to being Irish, Forrest conquered it all without fear or regret.  He lived vicariously through his viewers. Daly's performance as MacNeil is a sight to behold and is why Review gets top billing as my favorite show of 2014.

GAME OF THE YEAR 2014:  FAR CRY 4


It was a race all year long going from inFamous: Second Son to Wolfenstein: The New Order, a small pit stop with Middle Earth: Shadow of Mordor but in the end, when it was all said and done, Far Cry 4 was my most enjoyable gaming experience of 2014.  From it's voice acting from the superb Troy Baker, to the storyline which had lots of betrayal and intrigue to the zany characters that inhibited the country of Kyrat to Kyrat itself.  Far Cry 4 was my favorite game of 2014.

So that wraps up 2014,  onward to 2015 and whatever gems await us then.

When Sadness Becomes Anger.

Well...

I'm about fed up.

I just don't get it.

I just don't get it.

Why do I have to deal with being treated like this?

The one person I've tried to gain respect from despite how I feel about them and yet they treat me like a child.  A freaking child.  It's never her fault,  no it's always my fault.   I'm sick of dealing with this woman on a day to day basis.  I've had to deal with some crappy things in past employments but this takes the damn cake.

I'm not sad or upset anymore,  I don't have emotional outburst.  I have fits of uncontrollable rage/anger where I'm just pissed off with how I'm being treated.  Today was a bad day,  another shouting match between me and her telling me she doesn't like my mouth when I'm just trying to stand up for myself.  Well I don't like your management style.  I don't like being treated like a child.  I'm a grown man.  I'm going to be 24 years old in January.  Show me some damn respect instead of blaming me for all of our shortcomings and constantly having such an unpleasant attitude/tone with everything that happens.

I'm angry at myself.   I am not where I want to be right now in life.  I'm doing a job that just pisses me off and leaves me emotionally drained nightly because my superior won't respect/doesn't respect and  has the most frustration personality I've ever dealt with in my years of employment.   I wish I had done better in school,  I wish I had gone to college, I wish I was a writer.   I wish I was doing a job I loved but I don't know if I'll ever find a job I truly love.  I basically trudge along with this job.

Truth be told,  the people I work for are great EXCEPT FOR HER.  Everything is great...EXCEPT FOR HER.  She makes work so much more hurtful and emotional.  She's emotionally draining, she doesn't care about your problems and she constantly does this routine where if you question something she says she'll say "EXCUSE ME?" in such a rude tone.  She just pisses me off now, but everyone has a frustrating boss.  Or maybe you and your boss are best friends and hey, good for you if that's the case.

And I know some of you (if you're reading this) will probably tell me "well get a new job or get two new jobs".  I can't.  This is my job.  This is the job I'm sticking with till I get my writing career going or something comes along.  (plus I'm paying off my new car and money will be tight)  Like I said,  everything here is fine but her.  She is the thorn in my side.  "Well how about you report her, Eric?"  I have no case.  She's in charge of the department,  we're her minions.  We do what she says, we get the job done, and we get scolded when we screw up.  So much fun that's she's a former Navy drill sergeant too.  WHAT A GREAT HIRE.

Anyways friends,  I just needed to vent.  I'm going through a rough patch.  The holidays always hit me hard.  My life would be so much better if I didn't have to deal with her but I'm just gonna keep going with the robot routine but it hit a snag today,  I was sick of being treated this way and snapped. I demand respect but I have yet to receive any from this manager. If I do get fired, it was probably for the greater good.

In closing,  I think it's time to admit that maybe my mental health is now in question and I think I'm going to schedule an appointment to be checked for bipolar disorder and or depression.  Better to know now than just soak in misery.