Well I Don't Know What I Expected.

In this classic Arrested Development clip, Michael Bluth opens a bag that says Dead Dove, Do Not Eat and then opens the bag to see exactly what it was.  Thus saying "Well I don't know what I expected".

The same could be said about my adventures in dating.  Somehow, someway I always overdo it and end up repeating a vicious cycle.  I'm just starting to accept the fact that maybe I should be happy with who I am as a person before I try to make a girl be happy she's with me.  I think I'm just burned out on failure.  My latest one was my longest, we lasted a month before my emotions got the best of me.  Damn these emotions.  I don't know how to not be overly invested in a relationship or I don't know the comfort zone of the girl I'm dating.  As my friend Phil would say I put 109% effort into every girl I date and most girls don't want that.

So until I find a girl who also puts 109% in a relationship (if she exists)  I think I'm just going to accept singledom as my best option for the remainder of 2015.  I think I'm just fed up with all the nonsense and hoops I jump through only to fall flat on my face through said hoop.  I either go too fast, too slow, or not fast enough.  There is no perfect medium to my madness.  I think I'm a likeable guy, charming, handsome to some and funny but I'm just not a fan of online dating and or hooking up. Hooking up isn't satisfying, dating can be frustrating and true love is the ultimate goal.

Maybe it's just because I feel like I'm getting older by the day but 24 just seems like a larger number than it should be.  I'm not saying I need to settle down and find the one but I would like to find someone on God's green Earth that wants to be with a guy like me.  I think I still have time to find her but at the same time..I just feel like the sand is seeping through the hour glass.

In closing, I think 2015 will still be a good year for me, it's unfortunate that things did not work out between this girl and I but I enjoyed my time with her as much as I could and those are the memories I will take away from this. It's a learning experience if anything that I need to cool it with my emotions when it comes to dating because they seem to scare women away and I just need to accept this.

I'm not in any mood to get back on the Tinder horse anytime soon.  Right now, I just need my friends, a tall draft beer and some Netflix binging.  That girl is out there somewhere or maybe I've already met her and I don't know it but I know that it's going to be pretty awesome when we finally get together.